i can honestly say i’ve gone through a lot within the past 5 months. through all the trials i’ve faced & the emotional roller coasters i’ve had to overcome.. i learned to just be still & TRUST in GOD with my whole heart. i may have had couple of incidents where i let my flesh & pride take the best of me BUT GOD made a way. HE showed me ways to just let it GO. let go of the useless drama & things that would overtake the joyous times in my life. the biggest trial that i am facing with right now is my uncle (dad’s brother) was recently diagnose with stage 4 lung cancer that spread to his brain. the IBUS side (my dad’s side) are extremely close. we may be crazy (literally), loud & very blunt towards one another. but if one hurts, we ALL hurt. we stick by each other through thick and thin. *NO JOKE*

through it all, i can’t help but thank GOD each and every day for all the blessings the LORD has blessed me with. i have a wonderful husband who has seen me at my lows & at my highs. he has tolerated my attitude & definitely my crazy mood swings of being pregnant. he has stuck by me for 7 years, 2 month, 2 days & counting. we may not have the perfect relationship BUT i can tell you we definitely keep GOD as the center of our relationship & we have the upmost respect for one another.

every bit of trial we had to face within the 5 months, we surpass TOGETHER. the bigger picture is that we found out WEDNESDAY, FEBRUARY 8TH, we were having a baby girl. we finally told everyone. we told a handful of people in october, the entire VIERNES, CADAMIA, IBUS & VARONA family on THANKSGIVING &&& our really good friends right after the whole family knew. of course, all in person and then the rest we told on facebook when we found out we were having a girl. what better way to spread the word & have everyone and their baby mamas know?! LOL. i do regret not telling the youth & the bible study family in person but “certain” things happened & didn’t go as planned =/ BUT i’m glad everyone knows now and i’m beyond blessed that people are excited for us.

now, my mentality has been fixing my relationship with GOD in a deeper level because once baby girl is here in my arms, she will know how much i love & desire GOD. she’ll know that her dad & i will continue to put CHRIST in the middle of our marriage, family & household. she will definitely know she is a child of GOD and to grow up to be a women of GOD. she will know how much she’s worth through the eyes of the LORD & how a guy should treat her. all of this will be instilled in here because that’s what parents should instill in every child =) all mikey & i know is, our baby girl is our everything & we will do EVERYTHING and ANYTHING for her. her needs will always be before our own.

i know mikey will be a great father. he was a great friend, boyfriend, fiance & certainly a great husband. besides GOD’s love/grace & the movement of my baby girl in my stomach, one of the few best feelings i’ve felt is when mikey kisses my stomach every chance he gets & tells baby girl he loves her. every time we pray at night together, he always lays by my stomach so baby girl can hear him. mannnnnnnnn, gets me every single time! LOL. LOVE LOVE LOVE my little family. speaking of family, my family & mikey’s family have been so supportive in EVERY THING we do. it’s to the point where everyone spoils us. it’s flattering but i hate the attention. yeahhhhhhhh, i know! being pregnant, you tend to get that with everyone BUT i’m not one to like ALL the attention. so grosssssssssssssssssssss! lol. anywho.

“GOD, everything i’ve been through, thank you for the strength. thank you for allowing me to go through it because it only made me a stronger & better person. i know that you’re only stretching out my faith to trust in you MORE! you’ve blessed mikey & i beyond what we can ever imagine. thank you for ALWAYS providing and for finding favor over my life and my little family. you always seem to amaze me in the small & simplest things in life. continue to help me become a better person as each day goes by & let me continue to follow YOUR WILL & YOUR PLAN. continue to strengthen my walk & mikey’s walk. continue to be the main focus of our marriage & in our lives. i pray you also continue to mold our baby girl in your image and set forth whatever plans you have for her. this is not just me & mikey’s daughter but yours as well. we love you so much & again, thank you for loving us even when we fall short. i ask all this in your name. AMEN!”